Mental health can affect how we work and if our working environment isn’t what is required for who we are, then our productivity slows and sometimes comes to a halt.

This is currently what is happening for me. Last week, on Monday, I was sat in my usual place in the art studio and had to cope with people screaming, shouting, and banging. Now, I know this isn’t their fault – although, the would try to lower their voices – it’s a part of life and for them, they can all work without a problem. But for me, that’s not the case.

I suffer from four mental illnesses – Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), Anxiety Disorder (AD), Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). These illnesses often conflict with each other, and usually, the worst culprit in my mind is MDD… until I got it under control and now my PTSD is running wild like a crazy horse.

PTSD is pretty horrific for me. Between having flashbacks by triggers (triggers are words or actions that remind me of events that have caused the PTSD – not the triggers everyone says triggered them into being butthurt), night terrors that keep me up from 3am each day, and the magicalness that is being frightened due to shouting, bangs, or loudness in general which makes me shake like a freaking chihuahua.

So, working in an area that is full of loudness, is terrifying for me. And the problem is, it’s gotten worse since my MDD has started to be under control because the counteraction of my MDD was that it stopped me from paying attention to my surroundings in an attempt to make me sleep – even though I have Somniphobia (yay….). But now, with my MDD under control, and my brain focused, I can now hear and sense everything in the area and my work environment is scaring me to a point of crying.

It’s terrifying. And the worst thing is, I’m scared that if I complain all I’ll get is: get over it. Sorry, I can’t.

Now, I have to find a way to explain this to a teacher – who I’m pretty sure is oblivious to my PTSD and OCD, meaning this conversation is going to be incredibly long.

How am I going to handle this? Well, I’m going to say: I need a new place to work so I don’t flip my desk in a fit of upset rage due to not being able to concentrate because I have PTSD and this work environment is dead.

I’m writing this a day in advance, so today is Monday for me, and I will be talking to my teacher today – I will tell you, below, how it goes.


After conversation:

I have spoken to my teachers and we’ve come up with a plan – due to being able to work at home, I’ve been given the opportunity to work at home and only attend college once a week – Mondays. This way, I get the individual talk time with my teachers while also having work time when I can concentrate.

So, here it is: proof that if you work with a teacher, they will help you.

Make sure to know what your ideal workspace is, know what atmosphere you need in order to focus, know your speed, and know your tolerance level; without knowing these, you may never know your full production level.

Test yourself in different environments and see what happens.

Good luck figuring out your atmosphere!

Take care!