Hello everyone and welcome back to Lets Talk, Cas!

I have been feeling pretty shitty lately due to getting a lack of respect and honestly… a lack of appreciation and it bugs me because of how much effort I put into helping and making things happen for people and all I get in response is… well, nothing…

Examples:

  1. None of the people I work with seem to like me… which is uncomfortable and due to my Anxiety getting worse recently thanks to a lot of things, I have actually had to just not talk to anyone because I can’t handle being ignored and left out. This happens a lot at college but also in group conversations and its really fucked up how low my esteem has gone because of it….
  2. I have literally spoken to 3 people other than my family since this year has begun – by this I mean people I have had a full conversation with, nobody has talked to me because I haven’t talk to them…. I’m quite lucky that I have Jordan and Shari because honestly… I’d be dead right now if it wasn’t for that little interaction I get with them… Everyone else has clearly just put me on their ‘avoid’ list.
  3. I got told I may as well leave LLLRanting because I do nothing…. Really? I do nothing? I know this is just a troll or a evil commenter but really? Dude, I do almost everything here! I’m PA, I’m the CEO, I am now also the Recruiter, I am also a writer on a DAILY Blog, I am also the formatter and designer for every magazine and I also make the covers each month. The only thing I don’t do is proofread and edit. Bearing in mind I do have a little bit of a life! I do take care of my father, have a boyfriend, go to college, do homework, write 2 books on wattpad and I am Dyslexic! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?!

I think my mid-life crisis has come a little early… I’m only 18…

Anyways, I’m done, I can’t be bothered anymore!

 

Have a nice day everyone and eat a cookie for me 🙂

Love,

Castiel Gutierrez